2020 was a rough year for a lot of people. For me, it wasn't so bad. I bought a house, started grad school, got free money from the government, saved money, got to work from home, celebrated 5 years of employment, and many more.
My rough year actually came much sooner in 2012. The Mayans predicted the world would never be the same after 2012. In my case they were right.
A lot happened that year. In addition to coping with anxiety from my car accident, I lost two internships because of the economy, lost a file clerk job, went through nearly 10 interviews without getting hired 'cause I didn't have my degree, barely graduated college with my worst semester GPA, and a bunch of shit in my personal life.
My anxiety was so bad that even music could barely help me cope. However, as I was driving on the Tampa highway, Days Go By by The Offspring came on the radio. It was the one song that was most relevant to my life at the time and the one song in that time that could help me cope. It reminded me that no matter whatever hardships are going on in life right now, it always passes, even if you want it to pass right away.
Lately, I've made major progress with my mental health. It almost feels like I have a new lease on life. As I've said before, my 20's were in an absolute shitshow. I always thought my 20's would be the best and most productive years of my life.
Why? I wasn't too young, but I wasn't too old. I had all the independence of adulthood but little of the responsibility. Time to finally have fun and chase my dreams!
However, In addition to dealing with chronic anxiety and OCD, I think I was also dealing with some developmental delays because of my autism. My therapist seems to think so too.
Most people go through an angsty rebellious phase in their lives. Most go through it in their teens. I went through it in my 20's. That's what made it rough.
The good news is it's over now. I don't wanna jinx it, but if my 20's were my teens then my 30's will be my 20's. I have a feeling my 30's are gonna be awesome. That's why Days Go By is my newest TikTok!
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