So since I was a little kid, about third grade, I've been aware that my parents aren't going to be around forever. I'm not always going to have them to fall back on. That's why it was really important for me to get good grades so I could go to a good college so I could get a good job so I wouldn't be homeless. That's been my primary motivator throughout life: fear. (That and my parents made me.)
Nowadays, I actually feel pretty good. I may not have a stable job but I have a stable career. I also have a house. I'm also on good medication. I've worked really hard and built a great life for myself. I feel like no matter what happens I'm gonna be okay.
However, the stress I endured to get to this point was overwhelming. That's why if I could, I would love to go back in time and tell my third-grade self that I'm gonna be okay so I won't worry so much (and remember to take my meds). Unfortunately though, I can't, but I CAN try to comfort others the same way I would want to comfort my past self. So, this song is kind of me talking to my past self, telling him that he's gonna be okay. It's also kind of a celebration that I finally feel okay.
So, no matter what you're going through, just know that you're gonna be okay. Take it from somebody who spent 12 years fighting mental illness. Take your meds and take good care of yourself and you'll be okay 😊
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